Posted by alesta on April 30, 2005, at 15:05:48
hi y'all
i recently broke up with my live-in boyfriend of 4 years. i am having a hard time finding something to focus my attention on..i really isolated myself with him and don't have anyone i can call and hang out with..and am not sure i would even want to. i can't/don't want to concentrate sufficiently to read or even watch tv. music distracts me a bit at times (although sometimes the lyrics can be depressing, lol).
the weird thing is, i don't even miss him. but i'm missing something, which is causing my current agitation. the adrenaline rush of day-to-day living with him perhaps. i am craving something, which is why i think i got drunk for the first time in ages the other night.
does anyone have any ideas of how i can occupy myself? i feel really agitated and empty. maybe it just takes time, but right now it feels like sh$%. sorry to keep taking up board space. i keep thinking my life will get better after decades of extreme suffering..(i try hard not to be bitter)..but no dice as of yet..
what could i do that is fun, creative or interesting? please..i'm open to any and all ideas..just toss em out there, kids..trying to help people on the boards here is a good distraction, but i feel like i've already passed my 'posting limit'...
thank you kindly,:)
amy
poster:alesta
thread:491955
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