Posted by smokeymadison on March 20, 2005, at 17:07:51
i have decided to break up with my boyfriend and move in with my mom four hours away. she just moved into this farm house and is working on creating a farm there. she has two dogs, a cat, rabbits and chickens. i have not lived with her since i was in sixth grade. she was an emotional wreck then, but has changed dramatically in the last 8 years. she is on meds for the first time and is doing well. she has the same problems that i do--OCD and bipolar II, but is much more compulsive and doesn't cycle as much as i do.
in the fall i plan to return to the dorms and resume my education. dorm life is so much easier than apartment living, which i cannot handle right now. i plan to lose a lot of weight this summer and next fall with the help of my mom. she knows everything about nutrition and has a membership at the local YMCA. i figure that if i can get my body in shape, my mind will follow suit.
overall, i am very scared about everything that is going to happen. i don't know how i am going to handle breaking up with my boyfriend and never seeing him again. it needs to happen, though, b/c i am totally dependent on him and don't really love him like he loves me. it has to end.
SM
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