Posted by alexandra_k on March 18, 2005, at 15:57:06
Saturday today.
Just realised I'm struggling...
Didn't know where to put this so thought I'd just put this here.
I think I may have over committed myself with respect to how much work I am doing this semester. I was absolutely exhausted at the end of the first day. Wanted to just eat and sleep. But I had to prepare for the next days lot. And near the end of the week I felt dead on my feet. Even the students were saying I looked really tired. I know it can be harder at the start with the stress of seeing everyone for the first time. But I know it also gets harder as winter comes along and as everyone gets worn out. And then I am supposed to be compiling an index for a proff and I really don't see when I am going to have the time. And then I am supposed to be working on my thesis. To have a draft of the first half in 4 weeks. And I don't see when I am going to have the time. The time off I have I am sleeping or blobbing. I don't seem to have the energy to do anything. I guess it was hard about my application being turned down. It didn't sink in until today. Today is Saturday and so I don't have anything I absolutely have to do and so I am a right mess. I don't know if I can keep going like this. Preparing for the battle with the service to get a therapist. Maybe I need to take some medication or something. I don't know. I just feel so very tired.
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