Posted by Broken on February 23, 2005, at 10:54:48
The last couple of days have been pure sh*t. I have no idea what is going on inside my head. It's enough to either scare me, or make me even more angry than I already am.
Why all of a sudden, after at least 6 weeks of being so "up" and under control, have I gone the reverse direction practically overnight?
Monday was not good, I was irritable to begin with. On the way to work I got caught in a hailstorm which beat the absolute hell out of my car, and the day at work was just nasty.
That evening I got irritated with my wife, over nothing, it would normally not even come close to an issue, but because of me it did. I went to bed early.
Yesterday, I was not irritable, I was absolutely enraged. I fought hard all day to keep it in check, called my Doctor, and he reccommended taking some xanax and called in a prescription. I took 1 mg of those, and it didn't even phase me.
I went home, and for fear of yelling at the wife or children, I kissed them all goodnight, took more xanax, plus my other pills, poured a huge glass of wine, and went to bed. I was asleep by 6:30pm.
I woke up this morning, came into work, and though I am slightly better than yesterday, I'm still no where near where I was just 5 days ago..
I have no idea what the h*ll is going on, but it's not good, and I am totally confused.
poster:Broken
thread:462226
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