Posted by sunny10 on February 18, 2005, at 10:50:55
In reply to Re: I've forgotten who I am » AdaGrace, posted by AuntieMel on February 18, 2005, at 9:20:31
I kinda had to invent "me"... I realized that I was depressed because it seemed like life was only ever work.
It is very hard work to be what other people expect... especially when you take each individual's idea of you into account...that's a whole lot of roles to play. And no Emmy's either...
I chose the things I admire most about other people (thank goodness none of them was "money"... don't know how I would've worked THAT out!!)
Stuff that is very important to me. Honesty, integrity, stuff like that...And I just decided to act in those ways.
Granted, I haven't honed anything yet- most of the time I am now considered "brutally honest" ( I am really working hard on this one... but as you can see, I haven't exactly perfected it for human consumption yet...)
I still have times of extreme anxiety- especially like right now... I will see my sister tonight for the first time in ten years and am struggling not to fall into who I was back then...
But I'm woking on it....
Don't know if this helps, but I hope so...
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