Posted by Angel Girl on January 30, 2005, at 21:54:32
In reply to CALLING ALL housbounders !! aragophobias?, posted by crazychickuk on January 30, 2005, at 17:48:17
Hey crazychick
It's me again!!! I'm somewhat similiar to you. I only go out to go to the bank, grocery shopping, pdoc, GP and T. I didn't know you could get them to come to you. I've been a recluse for quite some time, maybe 2002. I got panicked about something and no longer felt safe going out. I had to go on medical leave at that point too. Now, when I do go out, I'm not usually panicky except if there are too many people, like last time I did grocery shopping. I had a panic attack, I didn't even feel like I was part of my body, so hard to explain. I was frozen, couldn't move, too many people, I couldn't handle it, it's like my body was there but I wasn't part of it, I was numb and frightened at the same time. I don't really even know how to explain it.
Why'd you stop your meds? I'm on a crap load of meds. I'm BP, PTSD, SAD and anxiety. Sorry you're having bad dreams about your father. I'm sure that must be really disturbing to you.
I'm ok with the phone but absolutley NO visitors, not even family. Some of my family has never even been to my apt. I need warnings, lengthy warning if somebody must come over so that I can prepare myself for that.
I call my apt my comfort zone and I'm always so glad to get back home after being out. I have absolutely no idea what I'm afraid of. My family thinks it's very unhealthy for me to stay home so much.
I always do things without thinking, not a good thing for me at all, I'm trying to change that.
I don't think you're crazy, I think you just have things you need to deal with. Don't we all, I mean everybody, even the *normal* people have stuff to deal with, just maybe it's different from yours and mine.
I started a thread not long ago called something like "anybody else a hermit". Got tons of responses. It's in the archives, maybe just 1 or 2 back. Go take a look and you'll see you're definitely not alone sweetie.
Hugs to you.
AG
> Cant spell .. grrrr
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> anyways i am house bound have been this way for 3 yrs now, i only go to take my kid to school and pick her up 2 days a week thats it!! im going crazy in my home ...
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> as soon as i step outside nothings real !! feels like im losing it, im concentrating on my mind o so much ..
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> I NO I AINT LOSING IT CUS I WONT NOTICE IF IM LOSING IT ?
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> i just feel weird ... and so lazy ..... can fellow aragophobias understand?
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> even phone calls, visitors, are scaring me.. cus they are unfamillier ..
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> i am even having bad dreams of my father abusing my daughter? ffs wat is my mind trying to do to me, my father is the best father in the world ..
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> i dont get panicky anymore i feel kind of i dont care, i got no emotions im completely numb, im not on no meds i stopped all meds 5 mnths ago.. i am juts trying cbt and see my counciller here at my house every 2 weeks for support..
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> i am also doing things before even thinking...
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> im obviousley going crazy some how. :(
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