Posted by Cass on January 17, 2005, at 1:56:37
Back when I was on ADs, my sex drive went away, and it took awhile to come back even after I stopped. In the past year it came back with a vengeance. WOW. I'm horny all the time (Can you get a PBC for saying horny? Hmmm, I can't find that list of unacceptable words.)
It's nice to be horny all the time, but it does make me more aware of aging. Being horny makes me feel young and nubile. Then I see some wrinkles in the mirror, and it doesn't match the way I feel. I'm sad about looking older.
Having a strong sex drive also makes me feel more vulnerable. When my sex drive was gone I felt very mature and in control. I didn't feel like jelly around men. It was sort of empowering. Now, I don't feel so in control. Realistically, I'm not out of control except in my thoughts, fantasies and desires.
I'm married. My husband is sexy, but right now he has some extra weight on his belly. I'm much more turned on by him when it's gone, and that's frustrating.I imagine some of you have lost your sex drives due to ADs. How do you feel about having it or not having it? How does it affect your self-image?
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