Posted by daisym on December 12, 2004, at 16:19:11
In reply to Re: Any ethicists out there? » alexandra_k, posted by Dinah on December 12, 2004, at 15:59:36
You know that my husband is dying. If one disease doesn't kill him, the other must surely will. There are days when I think, "please God, take him quick." And others where I think I'm not ready. But whatever decisions we make, his death is going to happen. It is God's decision.
Your dad has lived a long full life. He hasn't asked you to "do whatever it takes." If he felt strongly about that, he would have done that by now. Hospice knows what they are doing. Try to spend the time you have left remember the good things, ignoring his bad moods and holding his hand. Agonizing over decisions like this steal your time and energy. I know it isn't easy. But whatever you decide, home or hospital, it will be OK. Please don't keep second guessing yourself. None of this is your fault. Let your husband support you, he probably has a less emotional view of it.
I wish I could reach out and hug you. I absolutely know the agony you are in. It sucks.