Posted by partlycloudy on November 27, 2004, at 9:27:57
In reply to Partly Cloudy, posted by AdaGrace on November 27, 2004, at 7:48:44
I chased my in laws away yesterday. It was a very hard holiday for me. I felt very much crowded out of my house. Still I did not drink or sneak anything. My misery was not hidden from anyone, I did not force smiles I didn't feel. I felt mostly like screaming, somewhat like having a tantrum, and I mostly felt like it was too much for me, especially since Thanksgiving Day was my first day off effexor and at half the wellbutrin dose. It was all so raw. Thankfully, no headaches.
This morning, took my husband to the airport for a business trip, went to the gym, and I'm cooling down and hoping I'll have the nerve to go to a meeting. I think I will go, to get me out of the house, to be among people who are like me, and who won't care if I cry. Though at this moment I feel OK. This house is dangerous: a cupboardful of liquor is as bad as a handgun for me.
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