Posted by partlycloudy on November 13, 2004, at 11:21:04
I can feel myself being brighter and more able to focus. I would like to kiss the makers of cymbalta, wellbutrin, ambien, and xanax for giving me back my life. oh, and effexor, even though it didn't work out long term, it certainly saved me from myself at the time.
this is peace. this is contentment. this is where i've been trying to get to for a year. no imminent tears, no angry cloudbursts building up inside. i am so very relieved right now.
a big milestone for me was hosting the bookclub meeting this past week. i made dinner for the 10 of us, and gave them all belly dance lessons (it tied in with the book we read). they asked me to perform a little routine and i felt so self assured to be dancing for the first time in a year. the whole group told me that i MUST continue dancing. i emailed a local teacher and i'm going to join her classes. to be able to do something that i love so much, for it to give me joy again, this is the gift that medication and therapy has given me. i can show my face to others and not feel frightened of their judgement. i am who i am, messed up or straight, it's all me, not a stranger in my brain.
there is hope for us, now i know for myself.
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