Posted by Jai Narayan on October 28, 2004, at 9:11:21
In reply to Re: I'm losing this battle (TRIGGER) » saw, posted by partlycloudy on October 28, 2004, at 6:13:53
Way down deep I know that tiredness.
That weary feeling that it's never going to get better.
That I can do no right.
If I cry out for love and tenderness I just get rejected.
I think it's my inability to ask properly.
That every failure is my fault.
Then I never get what I want and need.
And my need is so huge...
if I don't get the love I will die.
Yes I have been there most of my life off and on.
I have done some scary things to get the love....Dear Sabrina,
please get some help.
You need support right now.
Get some help now.
NOW
people who love us don't always understand what we need and sometimes they get scared. You don't want to frighten him you want him to hold you and tell you it's going to be alright...Get support from someone who can help you with your meds and someone who can hold you while you cry.
I swear that can be so amazing.
It's such a contradiction for what we are feeling.
It's the perfect medicine for when we are feeling unloveable.Please no more nights with a gun in your mouth. No more.
Get help.
We love you so much here on babble.
If we could we would reach out and hold you....can we make plans today...
1. call your DR. and tell them about your meds not working
2. Get your T to hold you today...
maybe for a few minutes...
or longer.
3. Get a body massage, take a cozy bath....
4. let us love you....
even a tiny bit...
just ever so little at first till it feels safe to let more of this love in.Remember we are here, we are real people who have love and support for you.
Your buddy
Jai
poster:Jai Narayan
thread:408242
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