Posted by Klokka on October 25, 2004, at 5:42:31
I know I haven't posted in a while - have been very busy with school and haven't had much to say - but I didn't know where else to go.
I started a very demanding program at pre-university and it's become apparent that it's just not working out. I have seasonal affective disorder and things are so much worse this year than they were last. I can't focus in class anymore, and I'm making myself sick from all the stress. I don't know if I can drag myself to another day of class... but I have a midterm tomorrow, so I'm not sure I have a choice, plus I'd only make things worse for myself if I did miss class.
I think I would be able to complete this if I was able to change programs. This is looking like a good idea anyway since I am currently in science and discovering that I really should have taken liberal arts after all. The problem with this is my parents. Not that they ever went to college themselves, but they're so focused on this idea that you can't succeed without studying science and they won't let go. The second reason, which I can't blame them for, is that they paid a lot of money for my textbooks this semester, most of which would be going to waste.
I just don't know what to do. I've been walking around on the verge of a breakdown for two weeks now, I couldn't sleep last night and I can't hold any food down. I don't understand anything which is on tomorrow's midterm. I can't even see my pdoc this week, as he's away on the day I normally see him. I started medication recently but it hasn't helped at all. The consequences of letting school slide would be disastrous, but the stress is going to kill me if I don't. I'm meeting with my program coordinator (who is amazingly supportive but of course can only do so much) and probably one of the school guidance counselors soon to see what can be done, but I don't know if there is anything. I had sufficient help in high school, but this isn't high school anymore... Any advice for coping/dealing with my parents when this all blows up in my face?
poster:Klokka
thread:406918
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