Posted by Dinah on October 7, 2004, at 8:05:00
At least I'd like to think so.
Harry was in increasing pain lately, so I added a steroid to his cocktail. His eye swelled all up and the vet said to stop the steroid because he had an infection. But he also gave him a physical and felt something in his tummy. He's constipated, so it could be merely that. But his blood tests came back with several not so good looking indicators. So we're clearing him out, constipation wise, and looking again on Friday.
The vet said that if he can still feel something, we'll have to make choices. I wish he hadn't mentioned the choice of doing surgery again. Now it's haunting me. Harry hasn't been well for a long time, and I can't imagine that another round of surgery is what's best for him. But since I know the vet will support any decision I make, I also know I will never know what he really really thinks of not doing more surgery. And it's this vet I trust. This is the vet that helps me get as much as I can out of my dogs without causing them harm. So I'm not sure a second opinion would reassure me. The second opinion consensus was to let him go last year after the highly undifferentiated tumor was removed, and we'd have lost some great time together.
Plus, I'm really scared to give him his medicines. They changed a lot of them yesterday, and he seemed in pain after I gave them last night. Well, ok, I'd be in pain too after mega laxative doses. But he also seemed disoriented. I'm afraid I'm going to kill him by messing up. I mean I'm really terrified. My OCD is acting up so bad that I might pack up all the meds and bring them to the vets. Except general OCD is also acting up, and driving seems scary too.
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