Posted by Fi on October 4, 2004, at 15:07:05
I get really stuck on organising things, particularly involving other people. I have spells of immobilising depression with absolutely no warning.
Other people get understandably frustated if I have to cancel, especially if it was only the 2 of us and they dont like doing things on their own. And its not like having a 'respectable' visible physical health problem (and even that might be frustrating).
So it can be easier to do things on your own, but then that isnt good on the socialising we are all meant to do (tho I am lucky that I can still enjoy things I go to on my own, when I am well).
Then there is the dilemma, when I am a bit better, about how much to push myself. I put a lot of energy into work and the commuting. If I do things that require significant chunks of energy, does that make me more at risk of depression?
If I go out with someone when feeling a bit lousy, is that better than cancelling (how easily will they cope with me being unwell)?
But I know its generally a good idea to do things. And I do find one of the most frustrating consequences depression has on me is limiting what I can do. I am middle-aged, and should be making the most of the years that I continue to be physically fit.... But how much does it matter if I stay at home and watch good TV (the most relaxed situation for me after a day at work)..
Anyway, thanks for reading (if you have got this far!)
Fi
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