Posted by Angel Girl on September 4, 2004, at 5:38:10
Have you ever felt like you're life is crumbling around you and your going from one major crisis to another and the more you try to fix things, the worse everything gets?
This is the absolute lowest I have felt in years and I really don't know how many more crisis I can take. I'm not suicidal but I just don't know what to do anymore. The more I talk about it to resolve everything, the deeper I dig my hole.
I feel like a MAJOR burden and inconvenience to my entire family. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm afraid to even open my mouth because every time I do, I make everything worse.
I've called the Crisis Hotline a few times and even they can't seem to help me feel any better.
I just think my family would be so much better without me around. I can't ever seem to say the right thing. I just want to disappear.
I HATE being BP and all that goes with it and it's having a MAJOR impact on everybody in my life and I don't mean for it to. I don't know how to be any different than I am.
It just seems that the whole world is mad at me right now and my life is spinning out of control and I don't know how to stop it.
I wish everybody would just leave me alone and not have anything to do with me anymore. Maybe that way I couldn't cause any more problems.
Why does life have to be so difficult all the time? I don't understand what I've done so wrong in my life that God is punishing me so much. All I've ever wanted is to feel loved.
Is that too much to ask for? For me, apparently it is. I just don't understand why I don't deserve any love and happiness. I HATE LIFE!!!
Angel Girl
PS: I'm NOT suicidal, just MAJORLY depressed and stressed!
poster:Angel Girl
thread:386284
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