Posted by SandyWeb on July 22, 2004, at 10:42:26
In reply to Re: Sandy, posted by mystic on July 21, 2004, at 19:08:28
Hi Mystic,
I had been posting here for a bit:
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20040706/msgs/366681.html
Now I'm going to try and live in the moment. I'm going to try and not project into the future (which, I have to admit, seems pretty bleak to me), and I'm going to try and steer clear of the past.
Ugh, I'm not sure how well I'll do with this...but I guess if I can stick around long enough for my kids to grow up, then I've achieved an INCREDIBLE success.
Okay, our 5 for the day:
1. I quit attending the sessions with my "team". It was pointless.
2. I've asked to be removed from the Day Treatment Program that starts next month. It would have been pointless due to my bleak future. Just stupid.
3. I went to a different doctor at the University, instead of the lady who doesn't like me, and got a refill for my Seroquel. Not very pleased with the med (doesn't seem to help me sleep much), but I'd rather have it than not have it.
4. I ate HALF a chocolate pudding cake last night with my daughter!!!! I thought I was going to EXPLODE!!!!
5. Received an email yesterday from the cop who was here the night I slit my wrist wide open. (Nice of him to contact me again after we bumped into each other on the street recently). I don't know. Maybe this helps me not be so freaked out over the countless cops I saw over that short time period. Over-kill!!
Sorry to be "down" today. I just feel like I've been cycling since getting out of the hospital. I have one messed-up little brain.
Sandy
poster:SandyWeb
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URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20040717/msgs/368928.html