Posted by octopusprime on July 16, 2004, at 20:11:29
In reply to Bad moods, posted by Angel Girl on July 16, 2004, at 13:04:05
Angel Girl:
ok, so it's not exactly out of character for me. in fact i am famed at the office for being cranky. the guys there now take joy in ticking me off for entertainment value. at least sometimes my incoherent rants are funny.
and sometimes i scare myself. i did purposefully miss when i threw a computer mouse at a coworker last week. i bashed a keyboard. i threw a computer in a dumpster and it sliced my hand in a final dying act of revenge. i yelled at my coworkers "i try to do something nice for you and all you give me is s*** and abuse!". my drum teacher snapped at me and i snapped at him back. my network card broke and i almost started crying at my desk. i have perfected the death glare. my standard response is "i'm not here. go away. no i can't do that. no. stop. quit that. and STOP CALLING ME PONY!!!" (ok that last part is an inside joke but sheesh.)
it's a terrible terrible cycle and it feeds into itself, which is why i probably need some more meds to calm it down. i get stressed out and frustrated. i am so stressed i can't process it at the end of the day. so i sleep poorly (can't get to sleep, wake up ridiculously early). then i feel like pooh because i haven't slept properly. then i take it out on somebody else. then we all wind up more stressed. lather, rinse, repeat.
anyway i think i only woke up in a murderous rage twice this week. it's an improvement.
here's what has helped:
1. sleep! so important. are you sleeping well Angel Girl?
2. exercise! i have been getting ridiculous amounts of exercise, and it does help. but i'm hungry as a mofo.
3. good nutrition. fresh fruit and water.
4. relaxation exercises, meditation and yoga in particular.
5. hormone check. i think some of my murderous rampage was a nasty case of pms (that i normally don't get but oooooh nelly i had a bad week)
6. med check. self-explanatory. i do like 25 mg seroquel at bedtime.
7. alcohol. none. while it does help a bit to calm down (as it is a depressant), it very effectively disturbs sleep and make me feel worse.good luck
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