Dang it, it's the meds

Posted by tabitha on July 9, 2004, at 22:59:21

So I know I need an update, I got 2 new pdoc referrals yesterday, and in the meantime I've started up celexa again from my stash, at double my last dose. Dang if I didn't start spontaneously cleaning the house tonight. I didn't even have to force myself to do it. I didn't even plan to do it-- I just looked up and said whoa, look at me, I'm cleaning the bathroom.
I've felt unable to clean house for months. I look at it, feel bad about it, think of doing it, and don't do it. For months. Only a huge effort even gets me to do the bare minimum of taking out trash and running the dishwasher after the kitchen mess has been intolerable for days or weeks.
I hate meds. Why can't I just clean house on my own? Why do stupid little pills have more power than I do?
I'm gonna convince myself it's placebo effect, just so I can think I'm in control somehow.

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Dang it, it's the meds tabitha 7/9/04
Re: Dang it, it's the meds » tabitha Dinah 7/9/04
Re: Dang it, it's the meds shadows721 7/10/04
Re: Dang it, it's the meds tabitha 7/10/04
Re: Dang it, it's the meds » tabitha fallsfall 7/10/04
Re: Dang it, it's the meds » tabitha Dinah 7/10/04

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