Posted by Emme on July 5, 2004, at 14:02:32
In reply to Re: How guilty do y'all feel..., posted by partlycloudy on July 5, 2004, at 13:19:01
> OMG if any one else ever tells me to Buck Up, I'll buck something, I'm sure.
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> I've got this nasty part of my head that's yabbering at me about "how sick is sick?". I've never been fully anything: not bipolar2 (I'm "mild"), not alcoholic (never missed work or was DUI'd); not having a panic attack (no one to whom I've said this has ever seen anything different about me while I'm "supposedly" having an attack. So I didn't mean to put you in a box or anything, just looking for a common ground. And i didn't mean to offend about at what point I would call my T, sorry if it did.?? Good lord, you didn't offend me or anything! You were being kind and supportive. I'm sorry if I offended you. Did you think I was telling you to buck up? Ain't so. Have other people told you that? It sounds like you do exactly what you are supposed to do when you need help. I was letting my own guilt, self-flagellation, and bad mindset hang out and in fact hoping for more feedback from your perspective. Not a good day.
I don't know how sick is sick. It's all very subjective when I'm alone with my head. I think what makes it hard is the apparent disparity between what we feel and what we may be able to do. I went to a party last night and talked to people normally. You appear normal during a panic attack, but the attack is still there and you're suffering with it. My cousin said she was someone who laughed on the outside and cried on the inside.
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