Posted by mystic on July 5, 2004, at 12:55:50
In reply to Redirected Lexaproers, posted by jlynne on March 13, 2004, at 1:31:16
Hey everyone...Its me again :( Feeling just horrible as always..well not as always I feel like i'm on this rollercoaster and it just keeps going up and down and it just wont stay in one place...This med is really putting me through the ringer....I feel like right now I'm living 1/2 a life I feel like one or two days I'm ok not great but ok ..Then I can just be sitting there and bam it hits me again...
I'm afraid to cry as i think I would never stop..I get out of bed in the morning and just scared of what the day will bring and scared if I feel good that it isnt going to last...I know that sometimes I make the mistake of having a couple of drinks in a social atmosphere and that doesnt help.. I did have a couple yesterday as we were at a couple of 4th parties but not too many but it makes the anxiety so much worse and it lasts for days..not sure if it is the alcohol or it is just it would last for days anyway...I was up all night just totally freeking out and of course cant take the xanax because afraid I will totally lose it with that also...When will it ever end?...will it ever end???
I'm beginning to think that the lex just isnt for me but with being med phobic I'm scared to death to try something else...I'm just sick of being scared of everything and not having a life...I'm just sooooo sad....I'm sorry to dump this on all of you..but had to get it out..I thank everyone for always being there and I will talk to you all later....Thanks..Your friend Mystic
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