Posted by littlep24 on June 23, 2004, at 19:58:05
I have posted many times venting about the same issues that pull me down. I am especially having a hard time this week because it is my daughters 4th bday party on Saturday. I could just have a couple of friends over but no I have to invite 30 kids. This is pretty stupid knowing how it makes me crazy and cry every day because I am not confident with what I need to do; it hurts to think about it. It also hurts to think about taking the low road to a simple get together. I can't get it through my thick skull how much easier it would be. I think for me it is about the fact that I think any "stable" person can handle doing this why can't I? (over and over) Is this obsessive or depressive thinking? Now my house is always a mess so it is a big deal to clean it on special occassions. When I am trying to clean I get so frustrated because I don't know where to put things (lack of organization) and then I just sit and cry and nothing gets accomplished, since I have the thoughts all the time that I can handle it is this obsessive or depressive thoughts? I go back to the store 15 times in a week to look at what to buy. I bring something home decide I don't want it bring it back to the store and then go home and wish I didn't return it. I guess it is obsessive to think about, should I buy 24 or 36 plates, all week long. I am so drained from this and am short tempered, so why do I put myself through it? How do you differentiate obsessive thinking from the fact that you are having a party and your trying to make decisions?
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