Posted by littlep24 on June 16, 2004, at 5:59:55
I don't know where to go from here. I have totally lost feelings for my husband, who has been through my depression with me for 10 years. I look at him and I feel nothing but ashamed that I can not give back to him what he tries to give to me. Over the years there has definately been some emotional abuse, when he gets frustrated he has said some very hurtful things like the kids aren't learning anything due to your inabilities and I go off crying. He apologizes and life goes on in a vicious cycle. I am so confused if due to my depression I am not letting him in or if due to his frustration I can no longer take the pain he inflicts on me plus my own. I agree that living with a person with deep depression is not easy, hell I hate living with myself. It seems as like our life revolves around my depression we eat sleep and breathe it. I know that deep down I am a caring, affectionate person who is stuck in this hole of depression.
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