Posted by karen_kay on May 31, 2004, at 4:59:00
In reply to I'll Try for a 10, posted by tabitha on May 31, 2004, at 1:08:10
10. i thought to myself today 'quit waiting for someone to solve all of your problems and go fix that washing machine your dam* self girl! how hard can it possibly be, if that dumb looking guy on the maytag commercials can do it, so can you!' i looked online, i made some phone calls, i got out of this 'rescue me' mode. i found a screw driver, a wrench, a pair of knee pads (i knew where those were right off hand). i headed downstairs to the 'scary basement'. i was on my way to becoming a self-made woman. i was taking destiny into my own hands. i almost forgot to unplug the washer first, but i remembered!!!!! then, i started to unscrew where the water hooks up to the washer, but i remembered to turn the water off first, just as it started leaking out!!! after fumbling around for an hour, storming upstairs, downstairs, online, back upstairs and downstairs, swearing several times, i realized i have ABSOLUTELY no idea how to fix a washing machine. i almost destroyed it, just to unleash my rage. i don't recall ever being so furious! my dreams of being 'self-reliant' were shot! but, i do know several people who know how to fix washing machines. and i know my old man's credit card number by heart. so, to prove my self-reliance, the next time he really makes me angry, i'm calling the maytag repair man (and requesting the best looking one they have too!) and inviting him over to fix my washer, an extra big tip, and breakfast in bed! HA! how's that for self-reliance!
9. i saw ray charles, elton john and ryan adams on television today. oh dear lord, with so much talent (not to mention the good looks of ryan adams) i think i may pass out from the excitement. how could i not have a wonderful day when ray charles is on tv? hmmmmmmm?
8. it rained today. and there were tornado warnings everywhere. but, as scared as i was, i think my dog was even more afraid. so, i put on my brave face (not to be confused with my angry face or my happy face) and played with him. i did notice though, at about 3 am, while he was sleeping he was having nightmares. i woke him up. i wonder if he was dreaming about the storm? i wonder if i'll have nightmares? i wonder what the point was of this one? oh, but now the rain has stopped and i can hear the birds singing outside. and my dog isn't having nightmares any longer.
7. crap! i'm out of smokes! can you believe this luck? but!!!! i do see my old man's wallet on the coffee table :) so, i'll have smokes AND ice cream tonight!
6. the silence in the house has stopped. although i almost wish it would continue, i gave (in my own way) and finally put an end to the dreaded silence. it didn't require me saying i'm sorry though, and that's what's important, right? and i didn't have to lie either. so, i won this argument (or did i?). anyway, no more silence. still avoidance, but no silence.
5. i was given a great suggestion on how to get out of therapy this week. i can call in sick *cough* *cough*. i think perhaps a good plan to finally quit therapy, without actually quitting would be to fall ill several weeks in a row until bubba finally takes the hint. who am i kidding? i won't call in sick. i'll be the last person there, until finally bubba says 'karen, thank you for sticking it out. you're the last person to stick with the group and i appreciate it. you can quit coming now.' but oh, imagine the smile on my face that day :)
4. i heard a song today that i forgot about by taj mahal. it was on a cd hidden away and i hadn't heard the song in a very long time. i still can't find stevie wonder but it'll show up when i least expect it, right?
3. my dog looks very cute when he sits in front f the fan. perhaps i look that cute when i sit in front of the fan? (probably not, but it's my 10 list and i can pretend if i want to!!!)
2. i heard from jeff (sd jeff) and he's doing ok. now i have one less thing to worry about.
1. i took a long bubble bath today. i drank coffee in the bath tub, smoked, read bukowski "hollywood" if you are interested), listened to ryan adams, and thought about my new bride and our honeymoon. anyone want to pitch in to send 2 very poor young ladies to mexico?
poster:karen_kay
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