Posted by DaisyM on April 30, 2004, at 18:08:47
In reply to Best Wishes for Dee, posted by fallsfall on April 30, 2004, at 17:41:14
Dee,
I read your post a few days ago and the sadness that sits in my heart is so huge. No child deserves what happened to you and no adult should have to go through the pain of remembering.
I think your work at the crisis center was a way of preparing yourself for these memories. You aren't immune to help, but you have to respect your inner protectors and what they can tolerate.
I always thought I "knew" what happened to me too. I knew most of it. But when I started talking about it with a safe person, my world crashed down. It took awhile but slowly I pulled it together and continued to look inside. I've only recently (past 4 or 5 months or so) gone deep enough to learn the rest of the truth.
I know what you mean by the "word." It is beyond painful to have someone say it out loud and add your name to the sentence. Unbelievable and surreal. I dreamed it for awhile, had a flashback and then realized the truth of the memory.
You are not alone with this pain. I'm glad you are in a safe place. I'm sending you strength, hope and faith that you will get through it.
Hugs from me!
Daisy
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