Posted by Tootercat on March 3, 2004, at 14:49:42
And I am not happy! Due to life events I basically fell apart for about 2 months. Well for the most part I am back except I can't seem to get back on track concentrating at work and doing my job.
I just got dressed down today because my boss says I have been spending way too much time on the phone on personal calls and he noticed that I was "chatting" the other day on the computer. Well the pi**er of it all is that he is right and I know I've been looking for trouble to happen and it finally did! I kept trying to do my job but it was so much more relaxing and gratifying to play games, chat, check babble, etc etc. It's like I wanted to get caught so that I could get mad and do my job...how stupid is that??? So see now I'm feeling guilty and angry and unsociable but I'm focused on work again.
Why does it take a crisis to get me motivated????? I hate it!!!I feel like crying and hitting something at the same time. And I have other things going on that I have no control over and I'm sad and scared and feeling crazy.
Well so much for being the support today....I'm a basket case.
Toots
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