Posted by Ilene on February 11, 2004, at 7:22:37
In reply to Re: Feeling pretty good today. How's everyone else, posted by socialdeviantjeff on February 11, 2004, at 1:59:42
> Today was a bit of a regression, but still fighting. These super duper ultra rapid cycles have gotta stop, m'kay? Thanks.
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> So, how are you all doing? It's not always about me, you know.... ;)I'm glad you're feeling better!
Any new drugs on the horizon? Won't that be fun!!! Aren't psychotropics the greatest thing since stepping on a rusty nail?
I didn't take any Klonopin this morning. I took a little Neurontin instead, even though it don't do squat for me. I've been sleeping through the night for the last few nights, and the intense dreams I got from discontinuing desipramine have faded. By rights I should be able to start Marplan tomorrow, but my pdoc says I have to wait until Friday. (Who's the nut here?) It'll be a 1/2 dose, at that.
Note to self--ask pdoc about taking Gabatril during the day, since it keeps me awake at night....
My mood travels between suicidal despair and sluggish depression. I got out of the house yesterday. I will do so again today. I will take a shower, do my hair, put on lipstick, I will stop picking at my face. I promise.
I'm trying to get the house picked up enough so I won't feel guilty about starting my hobby of sewing again. Somewhere I have a pattern for a straitjacket. I have lots and lots of fabric (I feel guilty about that, too.)
Maybe if I tell you about all the things I feel guilty about I won't feel that way anymore.
I miss my daughter, even if she is a teenage pain in the butt.
My son's cat is on my lap. Inside his fuzzy gray exterior beats the heart of a thug. He's soft, warm, and purring, and sinks his teeth into me when the mood strikes him. He also intimidates the other cat to the point where she won't use the litter box. He is the last stray I ever take in.
Hoping we all function today.
I.
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