Posted by fi on January 21, 2004, at 6:50:15
Hi folks- just helps to share this with people who will understand.
Yesterday I really felt I had run out of the willpower to get through yet another episode, and went to my GP and told them that I was scared to be on my own in case I harmed myself. She arranged a visit to the emergency psychiatric team, who thought that I didnt need admitted to a mainstream admissions ward as such but there is this really nice short term unit... Problem is that they had no beds till Thurs, and now it turns out not then either.
So I am stuck with coping on my own anyway (tho swimming in anxiety now rather than so depressed), with the additional worry that they clearly thought I should be admitted to that unit so maybe they think I'm not safe on my own... I have been given a crisis line- I rang it this morning as I was getting into a state about being admitted or not- and it wasnt working!! Apparently,that's unusual (hope so!)
Now I'm a bit disoriented- I know the best thing is to carry on coping as I would in any other episode, but I have been unnerved by yesterday's drama. Tho I dont feel as at risk today anyway, which is wonderful of course.
I've also rung the Samaritans a couple of times- one was pretty hopeless but the other was great.
Back to getting thru each hour on my own...
Fi
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