Posted by Elle2021 on January 10, 2004, at 20:37:04
In reply to Need help understanding what's wrong with me, posted by daveyboy on January 9, 2004, at 22:15:26
You mentioed that you have a deep seeded feeling of hate for yourself and that you feel like you are the most dispicable person on the planet. Is there something that happened recently (or not so recently) that is making you feel like that?
>I wind up assuming the personality of people I like/admire in a certain situation which turns me into a chameleon.
When you don't know who you are or how you are feeling, it's much easier to adopt someone else's personality. But, the thing you have to realize is that you really do have your own personality, even if it's hard to identify what it's like.
My guess is that your suffering from depression and anxiety. Both of these things can be fixed. I can't see any reason that your should have to live the rest of your life like this. Go to your regular doctor and tell her/him that you would like a referral to a psychiatrist. Your regular doctor might even give you some anti-depressants to help you in the mean time. Either way, start looking for a therapist. If you don't have insurance, check with the gov't services in your area, usually they can refer you to someone who can help you for little or no cost. All the best to you and God Bless.
Elle
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