Posted by holymama on January 7, 2004, at 11:25:13
In reply to Re: Hi I'm the new bipolar here » holymama, posted by judy1 on January 7, 2004, at 10:48:11
Hello and thank you everyone for the really thoughtful and kind responses. I'm finding that this site is filling some kind of need that I've had -- like a support group. It's hard to talk with any of my friends or family about the intense experiences I've had over the last few years. I find that everyone wants to write off my experiences as my 'crazy' period, escpecially the religious stuff. They want me to move on and forget about it. The problem is, I'm a much more religious person now and a much more inspired person and I want to use that in a good way, but everyone seems put off by it or scared of it because it's a big change for me. I'm fairly certain that I'm not being over the top religious by the way -- it's mostly a private internal thing. I don't know how many people have had a manic experience of some sort that has moved you and stuck with you in some way after the mania was done, but only for you to find out that noone wants to hear about it.
In response to Judy's post, I'm not sure what label to put on myself, but my depressions over the last few years have become deeper and deeper, lasting longer and longer (the last was 6 months), with short bursts of 'euphoria' in between. There has been literally no break and no periods of normal mood for me for the last two years. So even though it was the SSRI that threw me into a mania (the only time I've gotten anywhere near psychotic), I'm pretty sure there was some bipolar there before the SSRI. I also feel like I can't deal with the depression without an SSRI -- I tried therapy, a naturopathic doctor, St. John's Wort, supplements, diet changes, exercise, and the depression was lasting longer and longer and I was starting to consider suicide. I also can't function well like that as a mother -- any stress (my two year old whining for example) sent me crying and weeping in the corner of the room or so angry that I was afraid I would hurt someone. What am I going to do if I keep getting manic on my SSRI?
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