Posted by Sabina on January 2, 2004, at 0:36:55
In reply to Feeling Unworthy and unable ..., posted by Brown_cow on January 1, 2004, at 19:30:56
self confidence...that's a tough one. i've been struggling with that one myself with very little progress. first things first, though:
it sounds to me as if, in the aftermath of your illness/accident, that you're still in "self preservation" mode. i think that's quite natural. it's not that you didn't have it in you to care about the welfare of the stray dog, but that motivation is just further down on your list of priorities since your subconscious response factors are grounded in fear based emotions. i tend to do a *lot* of this myself and i suffer from a chronic illness.
incidentally, i did it a lot more often, or to a greater extreme, before i got on the meds that were right for me. proper medication made a world of difference for me, as did getting proper sleep and improved nutrition. i know those things are pretty obvious, but they really can't be stressed enough. could any of these things be part of the problem?
i don't know how you feel about this sort of thing, but have you tried using affirmations, doing yoga, or any other mind opening, positivity type approaches? some light yoga could also be a step toward your exercising goal with spiritual benefits added.
that's how *i* deal with "energy stealing mind garbage", through all manner of esoteria (and pharmacopeia); and when that doesn't work i use tough love on myself: "shut up, get in the car, and go to the gym. you're lucky to even have a gym, you whiner." something like that. ;) only half kidding.
i get so fragile sometimes i think i *will* break. then, when a stray dog growls at you, it can seem almost as if the whole of nature is conspiring against you.
what, even god's little lost puppies want to hurt me now? screw this, i'm going inside!
i've considered taking a class (in whatever) to bolster my confidence and then i think, but i need more confidence *before* i can manage to take the class! it's a mess, i know. i hope some or any of this helps. i just wanted you to know you weren't alone in feeling this way.
bina
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