Posted by Emme on December 20, 2003, at 15:02:42
In reply to A Bad Day, posted by Ilene on December 17, 2003, at 21:17:49
> I've been suicidal all day. Not unusual, but I'm losing my patience with life, esp. since I'll be 50 next year and I've been depressed for most of it. My pdoc/therapist always wants to know what makes me feel better or worse, and I hardly ever have an answer for her. Just wake up that way.
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> I'm socially isolated, but I'm too depressd & sick (w/chronic fatigue syndrome) to work or make any kind of social commitment.
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> I spent most of October in bed. If it weren't for my kids I would've killed myself. I've been sick off and on since then; not as bad, but I'm terrified of a relapse. Terrified.
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> At least the pdoc says she will start me on an MAOI by mid-Jan if things don't improve. I don't think she's ever had a patient on one; she's too scared of them.
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> IleneHi Ilene,
I'm sorry you feel so awful. I'm glad to see you posted a second message. You've made it two more days. Please, keep trying, one day at a time. I know what you mean about not *wanting* to kill yourself. You just can't stand living like this. It's so hard when you wake up feeling awful before you even do anything. I agree with the others that it sounds like a med change is in order. I hope you have some better days soon.
(((Ilene)))
Emme
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