Posted by Dinah on December 11, 2003, at 19:28:56
In reply to Re: Ugh., posted by deirdrehbrt on December 11, 2003, at 19:10:55
I do know how debilitating it can be, how expensive for the family in more ways than one. My mother was a diabetic who never bothered taking care of herself. She just upped her insulin. Now at seventy some odd, she's lost most of one foot, had some serious GI problems, some kidney? problems, or maybe liver, and is now having to have surgery all the time for bleeding in her eyes. She has lost some of the independence that was the most important thing in the world to her.
I do know it's not as easy as eat too much and kill myself. But that's the underlying thought processes, I think. That I don't see why I should eat to take care of myself since, with recurring depressions, I often just don't want to be here.
I keep reminding myself that I'm being stupid. I'm not killing myself, I'm just making my life worse. And as I said, I'm not really enjoying the food so it's beyond me why I do it. There's a drivenness to it that has nothing to do with pleasure.
But I am trying to be good. I don't want to be a burden to my family.
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