Posted by Penny on December 3, 2003, at 11:26:17
In reply to Losing control of life - struggling at work, posted by Wildflower on December 3, 2003, at 10:53:58
> Is anyone else's work life suffering? How do you handle it?
I'm not handling it very well, unfortunately. I was just getting ready to post a "How can I learn to like my job?" request for help, but you beat me to the punch!
My boss hasn't said much to me about my poor job performance, and perhaps he isn't paying much attention, but I, too, am consistently late for work and my performance is suffering due to depression, poor quality sleep, anxiety, etc. He knows some of what's going on, though I don't know if that's a good thing or not. I was in the hospital (and, thus, out of work) for a week this summer, so I kinda' had to tell him something, and I'm not a good liar. He was very supportive, and he continues to be understanding, but I fear that he is going to reach his limit of patience with me in the near future, and then what???
Which, of course, doesn't help matters.
At my last job, my boss knew what was going on with me, and I don't think it was a good thing for him to know, but when I was having to leave work every week for therapy, he had to be told something. Same thing now - I'm seeing my T twice a week, and on Thursdays it's after work, so I don't have to leave early, but on Tuesdays it's in the afternoon, so I do have to leave early. I just make sure to mark it on my timesheet - what else can I do???
But, back to the problem at hand - how can we be productive at work while struggling with just plain living? I don't know, Wildflower. I really wish I did, but I don't. May I ask - do you *like* your job? I am doing what I was trained to do - I work in PR, and my degree is in this field, but I hate it. I hate sitting behind a desk. I'm too tempted to surf the net or play games or whatever I can do to keep from actually working. I have so much to do, and I find it all so darn tedious. To other people, when I tell them what I do, my job might sound interesting. And when I was first hired here, it sounded interesting. And it's not that I don't have the skills or the talent to do my job - I just don't have the motivation. Truly - I'm not sure if it would be different with any other job in any other field. I'm hoping it will be, as I'm planning to change careers, but I'm afraid my motivation will still wane.
So, what to do? I'll be interested to hear from other folks about how to regain control of our jobs, about how to learn to like or *at least* tolerate, or *at the very least* DO our jobs adequately.
My T recommended a book on procrastination, but I can't say it's been that helpful in motivating me. It's not that I don't care...well, maybe it is...but even the fear of losing my job isn't enough to make me work harder. Maybe I'm just lazy...
P
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