Posted by platinumbride on November 26, 2003, at 13:54:44
In reply to Re: bulimia at 240 lbs????? » platinumbride, posted by Poet on November 24, 2003, at 11:20:12
Thank you,Poet, for your response.....
I don't really feel any release or anything particularly at all, just a sense that I can't lose all of this weight without doing something radical.
i just keep thinking that if I get some of the weight off.....like 50 lbs, which will still be a drop in the bucket for me, I might be able to motivate myself to get out and exercise or something, and then take a healthier approach.
Laxatives after a lot of food, yes....I can't make myself vomit.....no real gag reflex here.....
Thyroid meds, well, you are supposed to take them on an empty stomach, so I just take more than I am supposed to, whenever I take them.
Food is surely comfort, but also a sense of giving in to what has become hopeless (like my life...meds or no meds). I guess that is a comfort to me as well.
The rotten thing is that I cant deal with the abuse of laxatives (some would say this is good, I guess). Feeling sick to my stomach all of the time is not fabulous.
I guess I can't even be a real bulimic.
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