Posted by PhoenixGirl on November 19, 2003, at 16:54:56
This is a little long, but I hope you will read it. This is a real "What the fuck??" kind of story.
I don't know if anybody remembers me on here..I haven't posted in a long time. Lately I felt that I was doing better. But last night I had a huge argument with my therapist, and it was during the group therapy that she and another therapist lead. I am disgusted with her because she criticizes and judges me, and has lied to me. She derides me if I don't do the workbook stuff. One time when I told her I was repelled at the idea of f*cking a man old enough to be my father, she called me "age-ist". What the f*ck?? I had so much faith in her when I started seeing her a year ago, but she is such a disappointment.
In the group last night, we argued about this (isn't in unprofessional for a therapist to *argue* with a client? Jeez...) I see her in individual therapy, and that's where most of the problems occurred. The rest of the group knew little of the details, but they immediately took up for my therapist. People usually give doctors the benefit of the doubt, I've learned. She started to practically yell at me, leaning out of her chair toward me, to the point that the other therapist had to get her to pull herself together and sit back. What the hell?? It seems like our therapy "relationship" is more about her than me, or else she wouldn't have these horrible reactions. I think she needs to be in therapy.
She wanted to bring up things from our individual therapy, which I consider a breach of confidentiality. This woman is a horrible bitch. Although I have benefitted from a lot of the things we did in therapy, she has majorly f*cked up many times and been downright abusive to me.
I need help. I have no friends much less close friends and can't talk to my family. There is no one I can talk to when I'm screaming inside from how horrible I feel. I don't pity myself. It's that there are things people need, we need to be cared about, to have people in our lives. I feel hated, worthless, and misunderstood.
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thread:281354
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