Posted by jay on November 17, 2003, at 3:32:26
Actually I have been "thinking" about this for years, but now I realize I *gotta* do it. An informal one..no "shrinks" or other "professionals". Once a week...and it's just us depressive and bipolar folks. No formal *CBT* (yay!!!)..just lettin' out what ill's us this week. Man..I will *actually* interact with people!! I haven't done that in...well..not in an informal way, in years! Seriously..I have no friends anymore, and just go and hang out with my brother and his family once in awhile.
So...please..please...*please* pester me to do this. :-) I've lived in this "shell" for almost 6-7 years, and damn....the worst thing about this disease...is it is *so lonely*. :( It is truly soul-breaking...heart-breaking, and I feel like I've lost too many years already to this illness.
I am also a good and nice person, and I think I can really help others too. It's not just selfish.
People like me...who think they are "too weird" to fit in...too 'crazy'...too 'shy'...too 'ugly'...too 'fat'...too 'scrawny'.I spend my days sleeping, then read for a bit, sleep, shower, eat, sleep...over and over and over. I used to be the guy who liked to go shopping, get a nice set of designer clothes, some special very expensive cologne. I know I can get some of that back....but what is most important is to feel good about myself and others..with no or little conditions.
Hmmmm...what do you folks think? (Besides me being Mr.-all-time-loser(err..loner..heh.)
Jay
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