Posted by Waterlily on November 16, 2003, at 19:24:34
How do you know when to go to the hospital? What's it like there?
One of my worst fears is that I'll end up there some day. To me that would be the ultimate failure (to me, that is, I don't think it is for others). It would mean that I'd be unable to take care of my family and I know I'd be letting them down. I have a husband and two daughters ages 9 and 11. I am at a very low point right now and am worried that I won't be able to go to work tomorrow. All I feel is emptiness and I see end to it. I am on medication (Wellbutrin for the past 8 or 9 years and just started on Luvox for this deep depression and anxiety on Friday). I've been in therapy for nearly 3 years and feel like I've lost all of the ground I gained. I will not entertain the idea of s.uicide (computer will delete that word if I type it normally) because my dad did it when I was 14. I could never put my family through that, but I have this feeling that I'm destined for it, which makes me scared that I'll lose control of myself and do it against my will.
I guess I would have to call the pdoc on call if things got terribly bad, but I wouldn't know when to do that. Any thoughts?
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