Posted by Tabitha on November 11, 2003, at 16:30:22
In reply to Re: Sabbatical officially over » Tabitha, posted by Dinah on November 11, 2003, at 6:26:38
Thanks. Several people expressed disappointment with me for not doing something more dramatic during the time off-- like travel the world, or get an insight about a radical career change (follow my passion type of thing). Even my therapist got disgusted with me for not making better use of my time. I had to make an argument to her that I needed to experience total laziness, sort of take it to completion-- and she seemed to buy it. Who knows-- maybe it was true.
I'm glad I'm actually feeling like the experiment was a success. For a while there it seemed like a failure, because I didn't feel good for a long time. Maybe this will change too. Maybe success is just making up a reasonable story to explain yourself, and being halfway convinced of it.
One definite insight-- the most depressing mental state of all is feeling no hope for the future, and having no faith in my ability to change. At some point my hope/faith kicked in, and it was like night and day. I can't believe I survived as long as I did without it. Maybe it will disappear again, I don't know.
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