Posted by Dinah on November 7, 2003, at 18:24:39
In reply to Re: Redefine your understanding of self » Dinah, posted by Eddie Sylvano on November 7, 2003, at 16:12:26
But I always run into the same roadblock when it comes to changing actions. It only does so much, and then it stops.
I was telling biofeedback guy about my little... whatever... during my preteen years. My world had fallen apart and I acted out big time. I was a mess. Then one day I decided that acting that way was not getting me what I wanted, that my life was worse because of it. And I just quit.
Biofeedback guy asked if I quit feeling angry. And I suppose I didn't. But I completely changed my behavior. Everyone thought I was fine, because to everyone else you are how you act. But I wasn't fine - something that didn't come back to bite me on the rear until my thirties.
So for twenty years I acted as I should, and for most of that time, I even thought as I should. But it didn't change the underlying problem, which began to express itself in different somatic ways, plus OCD.
I'm still that screwed up thirteen year old thirty years later. And changing my behavior and changing my thoughts didn't change that.
Biofeedback guy says that I won't be able to change that until I address the underlying emotions. But dang it! I've been doing that too! And still nothing changes... well, not enough anyway.
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