Posted by kara lynne on November 6, 2003, at 15:24:11
In reply to Karalynne, posted by oeps7 on November 6, 2003, at 9:00:47
Hi Mary,
You lifted my spirits by leaving that message--it helps not to feel so adrift and alone. I want to find more support --maybe a group of some kind, but I can't seem to zone in on the right one.I'm still living in my ashtray, avoiding The Enemy. The kid saw me today (luckily I was with a friend) and just glared and smoked. I'm trying to kind of meditate on the situation so I can get to a clearer state of mind, rather than walking around in a sea of reactive fear. I vascillate between thinking I've done something terribly wrong by calling the landlord, to feeling justified and that it was the right, unvictimized move to make. My friend said they are the ones who are wronging me here, and I lose sight of that.
I read your post again where you said it's not uncool to dislike smoke and noise in my home. Thanks, that's exactly what the situation is--nothing more, nothing less. But with four of them smoking it might just be an impossible situation, especially now that I don't have the kid even pretending to do me any favors. I hate having to be afraid to walk out of my own apt. I'd have preferred the landlord hadn't gone over there saying I said the kid's girlfriend lived there, but maybe if she'd spoken to me I wouldn't have said anything. However, since the landlord visited she has mysteriously disappeared...
Thanks again for thinking of me. How is life treating you and your fiancee'? I'd like to hear if you feel like talking.
Kara
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