Posted by girlygirl on October 18, 2003, at 15:58:45
In reply to re: age » HannahW, posted by lil' jimi on October 17, 2003, at 13:59:11
hiya - i haven't been on these boards for ages so no-one knows me at all... but I logged on exactly cos I was feeling really really miserable about turning 25 in two months time. so it was weird to come across this thread. I KNOW I AM NOT OLD. But I feel it. And I know it's rude to people who are older - sorry everybody, please forgive me for being realy self-centred. I used to be on PB a lot from 2001-2002 cos I was going through a particularly bad phase in my seven-year depression. Am now kind of doing okay (touch wood), am not on meds and feel like I am starting to sort a lot of things out. But I am also really ******** ANGRY. Cos I feel like I've lost the best years of my life. Most of the time I manage not to think about it but then it comes back (particularly when I have birthdays!) I haven't done any of the things I wanted to do. i haven't even been the person I wanted to be. I get to the point where I feel like I'm going to throw up cos I feel so scared that I have wasted so much time being depressed and alone and too frightened to do anything. I know it is not my fault, and there are far worse things in this world anyway. I am very lucky in lots of ways!
Sorry, whinge whinge. Anyway.
GG
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