Too late for me

Posted by Ame Sans Vie on August 21, 2003, at 17:53:15

I'm sick of being poor. I'm sick of leading a pointless life. I'm sick of being looked down upon by normal people. I'm sick of the fact that my university won't take me back. I'm sick of Medicaid... or should that be Medican't? I'm sick of being lied to. I'm sick of America. OMFG, I am sick of America.
No, this is not a suicide note. I just plain give up. A life that's not worthwhile is logically not worth living.
I wish all of you (those who have been kind anyway) all the best in life.
I would tell you that I love you all... but I'm afraid I no longer believe in love. Or any emotion for that matter, other than pure heartbreak, disappointment, indifference, and hatred. Well... perhaps not hatred. But only because one has to love in order to hate.
I would send each and every one of you every last iota of positive energy I have left in me, except that there is no positive energy left, and I've completely lost my faith.
All I have now is hope -- hope that when it's my time to go, there's nothing left after that. Perhaps if that worthless thing I used to call a "soul" actually existed, and if it were to die along with my body, then I could actually be happy. One can only hope.
Farewell to all,
Michael

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Too late for me Ame Sans Vie 8/21/03
Re: Too late for me » Ame Sans Vie fallsfall 8/21/03
Re: never too late Sabina 8/21/03
Re: Never too late » Ame Sans Vie Dinah 8/21/03
Re: Never too late Ame Sans Vie 8/22/03
Re: I'm glad you are feeling better (nm) » Ame Sans Vie fallsfall 8/22/03
Re: Never too late » Ame Sans Vie Dinah 8/22/03
Re: Never too late » Ame Sans Vie KimberlyDi 8/25/03
Re: Never too late » KimberlyDi Ame Sans Vie 8/26/03
DFW area (nm) » Ame Sans Vie KimberlyDi 8/26/03

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