Posted by CherC68 on August 7, 2003, at 20:22:20
In reply to Re: I'm Here...., posted by willie on July 31, 2003, at 23:20:50
Dear Willie,
I understand about the emails and your husband. We have been doing the emails amongst ourselves, Mercedes, Zinya, Susy, Yankee, Daphnis & Nyia (crap - I am having a hard time remembering the "on-line names". I had to look them up. I know them by their first names.
I do understand and I'm sorry it's taken me so long. I've had a very very rough time lately. I've been sharing with the girls and about had a breakdown.
I'm having surgery on August 27 on my right hand for carpal tunnel and again on October 8th. I've actually gained the strength (after over 30 years) to tell my father about being molested when I was young by three different men in our neighborhood. I've never been good at sharing. I also told him about being raped when I turned 18 by two men.
My father went in for prostate biopsy and it came out negative. That same day he showed up to calk something at my house - and I just told him. I've never been good at telling people my problems, but it has helped a lot.
How are you doing? I am not taking anything. I have Xanax for really bad days, but, I try not to take any.
I've heard stuff about Paxil, so I may try that. I just got shots in my foot Tuesday and physically haven't been feeling too great. I'm hoping to start calling therapists on Monday.
Dont' know that i can do the PDoc (medicine thing) but...right now worried more about insurance, because I'm seeing a Foot Doctor and then surgery - and I went to the dentist and had old cavities removed and replaced - so I've used my insurance so much, I'm a bit apprehensive to use any more of my insurance for therapy - but I know I have to.
The beginnign of this week was almost too much to bear and I called Zinya. I've had her number since June, but....was almost besides myself and she helped. All the girls have helped in so many ways.
If you ever get a chance to get your own email account and want to email me you can at CherC68@aol.com.
I miss talking to you and I will try to keep up with the Social Babble.
I can tell you that for the occasional posts by Zinya and maybe Yankee - we will not be coming back here regularly. I will if just to check on you and KimberlyDi - but we don't feel safe on here talking. We have shared too many personal things that can come back to haunt us, and actually would have loved to stay, but the feeling for Babble isn't the same, and we don't feel comfortable here anymore.
I will still pop in to check on you and keep you posted.
Big Hugs,
Cher
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