Posted by fallsfall on July 22, 2003, at 12:07:47
In reply to Whining - sorry in advance, posted by Penny on July 22, 2003, at 10:27:51
Sometimes you are allowed to feel sorry for yourself.
I know what you mean about not posting when you are negative, but that is when you need us the most. I hate to have you miss the support when you really need it.
Did your pdoc say that your moods would be variable with the Lamictil? He told you to take the Geodon as needed - that sounds like what you did. That's good.
This may not be your day for the blood drive. Particularly for giving blood - that can make you weak and feel yucky. You need to be good to yourself. If helping with the drive would make you feel better than going home, then it is a good idea.
I think that you can't stay alive for other people. You need to live for you. It may still take a little while to figure out what you are living for, but please keep looking. I understand the hopeless feeling - there was a time when I couldn't think of anything that could change that would make me feel better. I would never (in a million years) think that leaving the therapist who I adored would make me feel better. I would have guessed anything but that. So even though you don't see how things might be different, things that you might never expect could happen. I think I have to qualify "You can't live for other people". At the bottom of my bottom, I decided that I didn't want to live, but I decided that I had to wait 3 years until my youngest was out of high school. Her siblings had me around through high school and I thought it wouldn't be fair to deprive her. I think the better argument is that unexpected things can happen that can change everything.
If you don't want to die, then don't. If the problem is that you hurt then you need to figure out how to stop hurting. I wish I had a magic solution for you.
(((((Penny)))))
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