Posted by giget on July 16, 2003, at 13:06:44
In reply to Re: Kara, how are you doing?, posted by kara lynne on July 16, 2003, at 12:54:19
I was with him for 5 years, then on and off for 2 years. I hope I just can stop humiliating myself, that truthfully what it is.
Well I think I am going to need some support with this... It just started to resurface in the past week. So I have the dreams and everything else of him, wake up and grab my phone to call... that is what I always did before and he loved it. But I fight not to call... Sometimes I even win.
Thanks for asking... You said you had a hard time last night, what brought that on? Was it something that came up or just the normal sitting down and it pops into your head?
I am here for ya sister
> Hi giget,
> I'm sorry to hear you're not doing so well. I want to support you in not calling him in case you were really going to--spare yourself the humiliation. You are young yet and have so many opportunites in front of you.
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> How long were you with him? I'm so sorry that you have to see him at work, that makes it awfully difficult. On the other hand maybe it will remind you of how he really is. You've done well not calling him so far---let's do what (gracie? oops, memory lapse, sorry) said and picture these guys betting that we can't live without them and will be calling any minute. We can't give 'em that!
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> I know it's hard. I wanted to call my ex with a vengence (!) last night. I lied in bed and pictured him with someone else--saw myself driving over to his house, barging in and getting hysterical. I became a crazy woman in my imagination, desperate to get him back while he and his new girlfriend just looked pitifully at me and threatened to call the police.
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> Not a good plan. I'm off to work now. All I have left is prayer, what little I can muster, that I won't feel this way forever.
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> I pray that you won't either.
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