Posted by gabbix2 on July 15, 2003, at 11:44:49
Hi, yeah I'm really down, thank you for the offer.
I'm not in hysterical misery which is I suppose good. I don't think there's much anyone can do, your offer to listen alone was really nice.Its just the disappearing fiance, the disappointment, the repition (this kind of thing is always happening to me, and well, that sounds like an exaggeration but its not)
And in this particular instance its baffling.
The last contact with him before he was supposed to leave temporarily was an email he sent to my best friend, the ending saying
"Now this is going to be the hard part being away from gabbi for a while, I guess thats why they call it sacrifice though"bye,
Your friend TOM
Who is so much in love
he feels like a man who's been looking at flashlights his whole life and finally found the sun...And I mentioned he left me a ring to "prove"
he was coming back.
Its just so confusing
And You must know, when you're not thrilled to be here in the first place, losing something or someone that would seem to make the journey so much more tolerable is practically unbearable.
So I guess thats whats got me, being back to where I was except feeling worse, because I had
my hopes raised again, and this time it seemed okay, it seemed so secure..AAAAHHHHHHHHHGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!
Thanks for listening.
poster:gabbix2
thread:242041
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