Posted by whiterabbit on July 14, 2003, at 20:05:51
God how am I going to face those people again on Wednesday?? If there's anything worse than cracking up, it's cracking up in front of a bunch of strangers. I am so miserable.Went to work Friday and Saturday morning and did okay. Did okay this morning too. But this afternoon it got extremely busy and I don't know what happened to me...I just started feeling upset and unhappy because here I was working very hard, and I know that my husband meets his girlfriend in the afternoon when he finishes up work around 2:00, so I'm busting my ass while they're bouncing around in some hotel room that my husband has no doubt charged to his credit card, as he intends to make me pay half of what we owe on all our credit cards.
I just couldn't stop thinking about it and I started to cry, and I couldn't stop. Meanwhile the patient charts are piling up outside the door, everyone is waiting on me - doctors, nurses, patients, all wondering what the holdup is. There was nobody who could take over for me, and I couldn't just leave, but I couldn't stop crying either. What a mess.
Finally I thought, well you can't hide in here behind the cabinet all night, so I went back to work - didn't see any choice - and I'm sure all the patients said to their doctor, "Hey did you know that your x-ray tech is back there crying like a baby?" And of course all the nurses saw me too, and I STILL couldn't stop bawling.
Got the x-rays done, turned off the machines and left without cleaning up, something I've never done. Cried all the way home.
Gee I had hoped that I was done with humiliating myself in front of a crowd. And I'm supposed to go back on Wednesday but I don't know how.
I can't believe this is happening to me.
poster:whiterabbit
thread:241869
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