Posted by zenhussy on June 30, 2003, at 7:34:54
In reply to Re: Eating disorders » zenhussy, posted by janejj on June 30, 2003, at 2:33:17
> Zen,
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> Thanks for your kind words.
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> I guess I have been doing this for years on and off, just never really thought I actually had an ED, cos I would go months between.I don't think I could pluck up the courage to tell anyone. I told my boyfriend, but he said he would leave me if I keep doing it.
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> Its hard to stop though, for some reason, it seems simple enough, but why is it so hard ?I'm scared by my lack of control.
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> Anyway thanks for listening, I am encouraged to hear that you have recovered from this, you give me hope!
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> JanejjJanejj,
I'll always listen regarding this matter since I've walked this walk.
ED's are insideous in how they creep in and take root all the while one thinks they're still in control. I struggled for many years thinking since I wasn't daily (until later) purging that I was *in control*. This is something as serious as depression, bi polar, etc.
I fully understand the inability to muster the courage to tell someone and if your bf would leave you over this I wonder just how supportive this person is?! I am holding onto hope for you until you can gain some of your own. I truly do believe if someone who was as tweaked as I was with the purging over many years can get through it you can too (zenhussy raising her pom poms and letting out a rah rah Janejj!!).
Anytime you need a refill of hope about this gimme a holler.
Always have hope for overcoming the things I know can be beat. You've got what it takes it is just a matter of putting the pieces into place.
Good luck and you've got many who do understand here until you are able to tell someone in person and break the cycle. You've already begun that by discussing this here. Kudos toots! You've started taking the power away from the ED by lifting the secrecy. Proud of you.
Take care,
zh
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