Posted by Brio D Chimp on June 26, 2003, at 16:37:36
I agreed to be lighthearted.
I sat in one of those offices we knew so well last monday and I counted my suicides. It makes me sad that I cannot remember some of their names now. I always remembered you. That last day you went out the door and then turned back again and said goodbye. You were my last suicide you know. It took a while but I left that world although I never really made it into any other.I fell in love a little but I got scared. I got my degree. I got my dog!! I never got my Christmas tree YET but anyway I agreed that I would go on and try to be lighthearted.
But then on the news I saw the pictures of soldiers touching the dogtags hanging from the rifle in front of the boots of a fallen comrade and I remembered your shoes. I picked your name back out of the trash when they peeled the label off your chart and I touched your shoes on the top of the stack of your clothes whenever I walked by for a long time. And it was a long long time. It took weeks to recover your body. Who would have come to collect your clothes?
So I had agreed to be lighthearted but then I remembered your shoes and I turned back one more time to say if you were a plant you would be a tree and if you were music you'd be jazz and if I could say three things to you I'd say I hope you weren't terrified while you were falling and that everything will be ok and you did the best you could.
poster:Brio D Chimp
thread:237302
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