Posted by noa on June 25, 2003, at 21:41:26
I feel a bit odd starting a thread, with all the tension here lately, but here goes.
Well, today was the last day of work for the folks who were let go. It was very sad. I got up this morning and decided to buy flowers for the people in my dept. who are leaving--1 retiring and 2 who lost their jobs. I was running quite late, which turned out to be good because I stopped at a store that doesn't open til 8 am. They don't always have flowers, but I figured I try them first because sometimes they do and it is an easy in and out kind of store. Well, today they had a huge bucket full of bunches of gorgeous sunflowers!! I have seen sunflowers in gardens and growing en mass in farmers' fields but I'd never seen them as cut flowers (except in the movie, "Dr. Zhivago"). They were perfect--big, bold, proud, bright, gorgeous. They were a hit with the people I gave them to and with others who saw them.
I also had my meeting with senior supervisor. I *think* I was able to get her to understand my pov, but I'm never entirely sure. It was not an easy meeting, but not a terrible one, either. But it was so clear that she and I just don't understand each other a lot. Literally. She was saying some things that I clearly didn't understand and she had to keep clarifying and vice versa. From now on I am going to start assuming I am not understanding her correctly and ask for her to explain more before responding.
I got emotional, but my language and thinking brain hung around well enough to get through it. I do not know what to do about my amygdala. Really. I seem unable to control getting emotional when in these confrontational discussions.
And then the tears, of course when my team-mate left. Sigh. It was sad. But, the good thing is that she has a second interview tomorrow and it sounds like a good job. Now I'm a bit envious, ironically!
She had a few of us over for dinner last night which was really wonderful. And yesterday, I attended a professional meeting which was good for me--stimulated my brain and I talked with some interesting people, and made a few contacts. Nothing that will lead to any kind of immediate opportunities, but at least a kind of opening to develop the contacts further. We'll see. And, funny thing--I saw my upstairs neighbor at this conference! I had no idea (and I'm sure she had none, either) that our professional worlds overlap! Small world.
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